2008 - A Reflection

I know this sounds boring, but I can't resist saying it. "Time flies..." and it really does.

The memories of me entering secondary school, moving from one district (Kuantan) to another (Kuala Lipis) in 2001, entering a different school in Form 6, falling in and out of love, getting drunk and going nuts... the list goes on. The paths taken, the journey undergone as well as the experiences are still vivid in my mind. I daresay that I remember every single detail... ^_^

In my 22 years of living on this planet called Earth, my life has always been quite dramatic. Perhaps I shouldn't blame this on my various encounters... I should blame myself for being a drama queen. LOL.

So, what happened in 2008? Well, the first few months of the year was quite difficult for me, as I was recovering from a really bad break up and was stalked by the ex...

I became more dilligent and hardworking as a student during my fourth semester...but became lazy again during the fifth semester! Hahahahahahahaha!!

Went to Hatyai with Renee and her friends. Had a lot of fun shopping and seeing new things. Had a foot massage as well as full body massage for the first time ever. I almost fell off the chair during the foot massage because I could not stand the ticklish sensation. It was hilarious!!!

Been out a lot with my friends...for a change~

Went clubbing at new clubs!

I chose to work as a sales, and since my car was crashed earlier, I relied on public transportation, my sister and my sales team leader to get to work. Thanks to them!! Muakz. The point here is, I took public transport. A big improvement. LOL

Learned the hard way not to be so trusting and realised the need to increase self-protection.

Lost weight and gained weight on and off. So... I don't give a shit anymore. Call me a fat bitch if you want, see if I care. :)

EQ definitely has been improved, especially since I started working, about a month ago. This is a big step for me... because I have difficulties in holding my temper. But I did it and I hoped to maintain this. I don't wanna be the impulsive one anymore. I am going for cool, calm and collected. :)

Got to realize that I have to learn how to be more responsible, consistent, persevere and committed. Funny isn't it? Human beings should possess all these things in order to succeed but I am not born with them. lol. Well, I guess I am, but they are hidden somewhere and I have to dig it out and let it stay on the surface.

Many things have happened... If I were to write them out, you would get bored reading it.

So, all in all, it has been a normal year. Good and bad things have happened, that's just life, right? All I can say is, I am glad being alive and still kicking. I feel lucky to have my beloved family and friends around and everything happens for a reason. Sometimes, when bad things happened, you will realize some hidden things. Example, can't think of it now but all I can say is... blessings in disguise do exist. :)

Thank you to everyone who has been a part in my life. I appreaciate all of you. Mwah!!

Goodbye 2008 and welcome, 2009!

Random Thoughts

I am officially getting tired of apologising for the lack of updates. So for a difference, I will not be apologising this time. lol

I know, I am on holidays but I'm working now. Sales advisor for Proton. Since I am new, I do not have much time for myself lately. Even when I do, all I wish to do is to stay home, rest and sleep and watch telly or dvds. Gosh, sounds like I am getting old. Seriously, I am pretty worn out everyday when I finally get off work, even when I did nothing much during my working hours. I think the stress is getting to me. I start to feel like a loser again. But I have yet to give up... I will continue fighting.

My social life is like... dead. I don't get to spend much time with my friends anymore... sigh. Romance? DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. Alright, I'll say this, loud and clear - I've been fantasizing that I could actually develop a relationship with someone and again, I'm disappointed. Not much to my surprise, tho'. I am used to it. I think I should really give myself one tight slap - "wake up, idiot!"

Nothing is going smooth at the moment... why can't my life be smooth-sailing? My fragile heart has been crushed again and again. I almost feel that I could hear my heart breaking. Please don't get me wrong. I am not talking about my romance (although I admit, it did upset me a little). I am talking about something else... something P & C.

I have to go to bed now, or else I will be a walking corpse tomorrow at work. Folks, I am so sorry for missing out the outings... I will try my best to make it up once I get my car back. Love~

P/S: Cristabel is breaking down. Purely an emotional wreck now.