It's been a while

Hi all, I've been missing in action again... :o

Nope, this time it is not about work or assignment or anything...

Someone once told me: "It is not easy to push yourself to do something". How true.

Now that I am taking Diploma in Professional Make Up, I feel that the stress is getting to me. I am serious. I feel that I am never gonna make it. I feel that I don't have the talent. I watch all my friends go to work with so much energy and enthusiast and hell I envy them. I watch all of them building their career and hell I envy them too! Everyone's working and yet I am stuck studying. Every now and then, if opportunities come up, I would feel tempted. I would feel like going back to event/advertising/PR... but I always tell myself, this is your dream. You chose it. You left your job for it. It's like I have a devil living deep inside my heart who keeps debating with me. "You can't make it. A dream is always a dream."

It's driving me insane here! To add insult to injury... people judge. I know I can't stop people from judging me and I am learning to deal with this. Sometimes I succeed in ignoring them, sometimes I don't. The determining factor here is... who are those people and whether or not I care for them.

But no matter what, I would fight the devil living in mind and I will prove some people wrong. I am not worthless. Not useless.

Right now... I just need to rant a little. Because I am afraid. Afraid of the unknown, afraid of the future. Afraid of failure. Afraid of losing. After ranting...I believe that I would be ok.

More updates soon, if there is any. :)

Happy Mother's Day!

To all the mums out there, Happy Mother's Day!

For me, I have two mums to wish. ^_^ One is my mum, another one is my yima, who brought me up.

I know that both won't get to see this, but then I just want to express my feelings towards them in my own little space.

To my mum: -

No, the adorable little girl is not me. She is my niece. ^^

Mum, happy mother's day! I know that I had been a pain in the ass when I moved in to stay with you and dad 9 years ago. I know that I had been really rebellious and immatured. I know that I always made your blood boil. I am sorry for not being the best daughter ever. I am sorry for blaming you so many years. I understand everything now. Please forgive me. I will not fail you, I swear. I will make you proud. Mum, I love you. :)

To my yima: -


Yima, thanks for bringing me up and loving me unconditionally. Without you, I will not be who I am today. I know that I hurt you all those years ago when I did something wrong and you had to send me away. I guess, I never apologized for what I did to you before, not properly, anyway. So here I am. Sorry. I am still feeling very guilty and I could still feel the pain when I had to part with you... But I will make it up to you. I will come back and visit you more often and I will fulfill my promises towards you. I already fulfilled one. I am a uni grad now! I hope you are proud of me. ^_^ And I hope that you will fulfill your promises too. One of them is to be there when I get married one day. You promised! hehehe.

And I just realised, I don't really have that many pictures of my family with me. They are all in lipis or kuantan. =.=| But anyway, they will always be in my heart.

P/S: I wanted to post this up earlier, but the darn internet was damn slow so I had to give up. Now it's much better.

Guys, gotta scoot!

Much love all~

Friendship is one of the most precious things

Dear all,

Mr. Insomnia wants to be my new best friend again. He wouldn't leave me alone. :( I guess this is becoz of my biological clock, which is totally eff-ed up now. But no matter what, I am always a night ghost. :) I am most productive and efficient at night. In the morning, I am just a walking zombie.

Just now, I had my breakfast/lunch/dinner with Julliette at Kim Gary, Sunway Pyramid. We talked for hours! Julliette dear, I am lucky to have met you and I am glad, very glad to know you! :) She said something which I can't agree more...

"Friendship is one of the most precious things in life."

It's so true. One of God's greatest gift is indeed, friendship.

Someone once said to me that she didn't need any friend in her life; friends are meant to be manipulated. I would like to tell her now, without my friends, I will not be who I am today. Although I might be an unattractive/ugly/fat loser in your eyes, but I believe, I am happier than you. Because I am always surrounded by very supportive friends who love me for who I am. I don't have to wear a mask 24/7 and I am comfortable in my own skin. I may not be as attractive or as rich as you, but I am happy and most importantly, I am not as insecure as you. I don't need the luxurious or glamourous life of yours to fill my life. A few hours of hanging out with my friends, no matter where we are, will do for me.

Whenever I am in trouble, my friends are there to help me.

Whenever I am upset, my friends are there to cheer me up.

Whenever I am lonely, my friends are there to be with me.

When I cry, I have shoulders to lean on.

When I laugh, they laugh with me.

We share everything with each other and we love each other, no matter how much we argue.

I would like to dedicate this to all my friends out there. You know who you are.


Guys, forgive me for being so corny here. @.@

I just want you to know, this is true my heart. That's right, true from MinMin's ♥

Recent activities

Dear all,

I have been missing in action from my blog for quite some time, before I quit my job, right?

Actually, my life has changed quite a lot, but I am really behind in updates here. To make it up, I guess I'll just have to blog about some things I have done recently.

Movies watched:

Freaking Hilarious. Two thumbs up!

A must-watch movie. As good as the first one

I watched both movies with Voon and Eva~ Thanks girls~ It was fun. Let's watch Iron Man 2 soon... I haven't watched... /_\

Books read: -

Sophie Kinsella is definitely my favourite writer. I can spend hours reading her books and I have read everything written by this fabulous woman. Twenties Girl is mainly about the relationship between an ordinary girl with overactive imagination called Lara with her 105-year-old great aunt who has already passed away, but couldn't rest in peace because she could not find her necklace, which meant a lot to her. No one could help her but Lara, because she was the only one who could see her. Sadie, her great aunt, appeared in the form of bold, fun-loving, Charleston-Dancing girl, demanded that Lara must track down her necklace. Annoyed and scared of her incessant shrieks and shouts, Lara agreed, although her life was a mess - her business partner has run off to Goa, she has just been dumped by her boyfriend and was still obsessing about getting back together with him. As the treasure hunt began, both girls, who had nothing in common, started to get along with each other and Lara's mundane life took a turn; she thrived in her career, she found new romance...

Oops, I guess I have said too much already... My bad. :p If you are interested in this book, you really should go get one from your nearest bookstore and read it! It will be worth your time. I laughed like a mad woman when I was reading it and my friends thought I was crazy! It's story is intriguing, hilarious and meaningful... Ten thumbs up! wtf. :)

Beyond the Blonde, on the other hand, is a story of a hairdresser to stars, Georgia, a small town girl who got the position as a colourist in one of the most well-known and expensive salons in New York, Jean-Luc. This books takes the readers into the glamorous world of bitchy women and men, mainly the salon's clients. Find out how Georgia battled bullies, found romance, endured heartbreak and betrayal, and fought the fear within her throughout the journey of her career as a colourist at such a glamorous salon! Beyond the Blonde is definitely interesting; but I still prefer Sophie's Twenties Girl! I guess preference is always subjective. :)

Anyway, thanks Kelly for lending me this!

And, I attended Kelly Clarkson's All I Ever Wanted Tour Concert at Bukit Jalil National Stadium! Many thanks to Julliette who scored me fabulous seats, for free! Yoohoooooo!!! And not forgetting Ms. Kelly Tey, who attended the concert with me~!! Kelly watched Kelly, wtf.

We did not bring camera to the concert, so no pictures were taken... BooHoo~
It was definitely worth watching! I would kill to have a voice like hers... seriously. She was simply fabulous...! Love her to bits! Anyway, if anyone wishes to take a look at the concert's pictures, click here.

Apart from these, I am taking up salsa class now, many many thanks to Voon and Eva ^_^
It's really fun~

And I am taking up gym as well, woohoo! I hate working out, but I won't stop!

Favourite hang out place for the past few months: Zeta Bar, Modesto's, Sya's place, Cs' pan mee restaurant (because of CHAIRMAN, of course), gym, shopping malls, etc etc.

Actually I have taken quite a number of pictures, but god knows, it is tiring to upload all here. Why do double work when you can find those on my FB? HEHEHE.

Wow, it's now 5.03 am... I really have to get some sleep, although I am not sleepy yet. :p I want to get rid of my dark circles!! They are annoying! If I don't have them, I would feel very very comfortable not wearing makeup everyday. I won't feel like sinking into the ground when I bump into people who have never seen me without make up....! I can only wish.... no more questions such as, "Why do you look so tired?", "What time did you go to sleep last night?" etc etc, which basically means "you look like shit" to me. Okok, just kidding.

Gotta scoot!

Much love all!

Bitch

Dear all,

First of all, let me apologize first as this is going to be a very angry and frustrated post.

I just want to let the whole world knows what I think of that bitch. How can one be so nice to you but stabs you at the back? How can one be so selfish and only thinks about herself? Her whole damn world just revolves around herself, and of course, money. She never thinks that she's at fault for what happened. Not at all. How self-centered is that? Who does she think she is? Just because she is rich, she thinks she has the right to lord it all over other people? Donating for charity every once in a while does NOT erase what you have done, you evil bitch. Please try putting yourself into other people's shoes. Yes, no doubt, the victims of your deeds are my friend, but even if they are not, I would still say the same thing about you. Stop pretending, you manipulative bitch.

Karma does exist, mark my words. Just be careful! On second thought, no, don't be careful. You deserve all that. More than anyone I know.