2008 - A Reflection

I know this sounds boring, but I can't resist saying it. "Time flies..." and it really does.

The memories of me entering secondary school, moving from one district (Kuantan) to another (Kuala Lipis) in 2001, entering a different school in Form 6, falling in and out of love, getting drunk and going nuts... the list goes on. The paths taken, the journey undergone as well as the experiences are still vivid in my mind. I daresay that I remember every single detail... ^_^

In my 22 years of living on this planet called Earth, my life has always been quite dramatic. Perhaps I shouldn't blame this on my various encounters... I should blame myself for being a drama queen. LOL.

So, what happened in 2008? Well, the first few months of the year was quite difficult for me, as I was recovering from a really bad break up and was stalked by the ex...

I became more dilligent and hardworking as a student during my fourth semester...but became lazy again during the fifth semester! Hahahahahahahaha!!

Went to Hatyai with Renee and her friends. Had a lot of fun shopping and seeing new things. Had a foot massage as well as full body massage for the first time ever. I almost fell off the chair during the foot massage because I could not stand the ticklish sensation. It was hilarious!!!

Been out a lot with my friends...for a change~

Went clubbing at new clubs!

I chose to work as a sales, and since my car was crashed earlier, I relied on public transportation, my sister and my sales team leader to get to work. Thanks to them!! Muakz. The point here is, I took public transport. A big improvement. LOL

Learned the hard way not to be so trusting and realised the need to increase self-protection.

Lost weight and gained weight on and off. So... I don't give a shit anymore. Call me a fat bitch if you want, see if I care. :)

EQ definitely has been improved, especially since I started working, about a month ago. This is a big step for me... because I have difficulties in holding my temper. But I did it and I hoped to maintain this. I don't wanna be the impulsive one anymore. I am going for cool, calm and collected. :)

Got to realize that I have to learn how to be more responsible, consistent, persevere and committed. Funny isn't it? Human beings should possess all these things in order to succeed but I am not born with them. lol. Well, I guess I am, but they are hidden somewhere and I have to dig it out and let it stay on the surface.

Many things have happened... If I were to write them out, you would get bored reading it.

So, all in all, it has been a normal year. Good and bad things have happened, that's just life, right? All I can say is, I am glad being alive and still kicking. I feel lucky to have my beloved family and friends around and everything happens for a reason. Sometimes, when bad things happened, you will realize some hidden things. Example, can't think of it now but all I can say is... blessings in disguise do exist. :)

Thank you to everyone who has been a part in my life. I appreaciate all of you. Mwah!!

Goodbye 2008 and welcome, 2009!

Random Thoughts

I am officially getting tired of apologising for the lack of updates. So for a difference, I will not be apologising this time. lol

I know, I am on holidays but I'm working now. Sales advisor for Proton. Since I am new, I do not have much time for myself lately. Even when I do, all I wish to do is to stay home, rest and sleep and watch telly or dvds. Gosh, sounds like I am getting old. Seriously, I am pretty worn out everyday when I finally get off work, even when I did nothing much during my working hours. I think the stress is getting to me. I start to feel like a loser again. But I have yet to give up... I will continue fighting.

My social life is like... dead. I don't get to spend much time with my friends anymore... sigh. Romance? DON'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. Alright, I'll say this, loud and clear - I've been fantasizing that I could actually develop a relationship with someone and again, I'm disappointed. Not much to my surprise, tho'. I am used to it. I think I should really give myself one tight slap - "wake up, idiot!"

Nothing is going smooth at the moment... why can't my life be smooth-sailing? My fragile heart has been crushed again and again. I almost feel that I could hear my heart breaking. Please don't get me wrong. I am not talking about my romance (although I admit, it did upset me a little). I am talking about something else... something P & C.

I have to go to bed now, or else I will be a walking corpse tomorrow at work. Folks, I am so sorry for missing out the outings... I will try my best to make it up once I get my car back. Love~

P/S: Cristabel is breaking down. Purely an emotional wreck now.

The end of Semester 5

I know... I am really behind with updates... But I am trying. =) Time flies... I still vividly remember the first day I stepped into TCPJ and the experience during the first semester, in which I struggled so badly to cope. I wanted to give up, but somehow, I did not and persisted. I can't believe it... I already finished my fifth semester and I only have one more semester + internship to go and I will be graduating, if I pass. Phew! I did not have much time to think about how much I achieved earlier but I have plenty of time to think about it now. Well, duh, I learn how to write, which annoys the hell outta me sometimes. Hahahah, I think my fellow uni mates will know what I am talking about. I am a Communication and Media Management major and yet I have to write all the time, like a journalist. Is the reason of my annoyance clear now? =)

Alright, to be fair, I did learn quite a lot... Photoshops, Indesign, Frontpage, Dreamweaver, A LITTLE BIT of HTML code and CSS (I am really bad in this), a little bit of surviving skills (you don't really learn much in uni, coz the working world is totally different!) and so forth. Oh ya, although I am an avid reader, I hate reading newspapers. Due to the demand of my course, I have to read them all the time, so I have more knowledge of current issues. Well, everyone in my course learn the same thing, so it is not really a big deal, right? But I am amazed that I can actually operate a software, being a technical idiot all the time. LOL

So... I am graduating in less than a year. Anticipation, happiness, sadness and fear - a mixture of feelings, is flooding through my veins. Yes, every undergraduate hopes to graduate so that they can finally move on and work and this is exactly my hope. But as the end of the journey of education draws nearer, I feel sad and afraid too. Although uni can be annoying, classes can be boring and lecturers can be sucky, time spent with friends is priceless. Hanging out with each other before classes, during lunch, outside uni, etc - these might sound normal, but I am having such a good time! This is like, once in a life time experience. When you work, you don't get to be irresponsible, lazy, crazy anymore, well at least not all the time. Do you still have that much time to hang out with your friends? You know the answer. All I know is I will look back one day and miss my uni life terribly, hoping I could go back.

Picture time!

Kelly and myself

Alvin (wearing Sya's witch hat for Halloween) and half of Michelle. :p

Leesha and Sya

Toddy and Kelly

Kelly and Cheri pretending to be ghost. HAHAHA

A Cruel Reality

About two weeks ago, I watched a show on television. Some Taiwanese Show, I forgot what is the name. It's like a guessing game show. Anyway, it made me sad. Five pictures of really really big size girls were shown to the guests. They were asked to guess which girl lost the most weight. Then, the girls walked out from the backstage one by one... One of the girls actually lost 50 kg. Yes, you heard me. Freaking 50 kg!! The girl who lost the least weight? 24 kg. Anyway, they were asked to speak about their experiences, etc. All of them, I mean ALL of them, said that things have changed so much since they lost weight. They have more friends, more guys in their lives and no one tease them about their weight anymore. They said that they were not accepted by the society and people when they were fat, and now, things have changed. Since they became skinnier and prettier.

Gosh...what a cruel reality. Why? Why are people (esp girls) only accepted and well-liked if they are skinny and good-looking?? I feel so much for them because that happened to me in the past, when I was younger. Well, it is still happening now, but not as bad. Is physical appearance really everything? Is it the only thing that defines you? Why are humans such visual animals? Only inner beauty lasts in one's life, because everyone will grow old, provided they are not dead before they reach 50 and beyond wtf. I know all these but I am still a vain girl, you know? I still care a lot about how I look, but I am not that shallow - I don't define and judge people solely based on their appearances. I. DO. NOT. Even so, I always get the feeling that people other than my friends will only judge me based on my looks.

Sorry for the rambles... It's just that I have too much on my mind... and I have to get some things off my chest. Humans are such complicated animals and sometimes dealing with them tires me. (I am not referring to all humans, but certain ones)

My mind is so loaded...

The 'love' of my life

I did not shop much lately... coz I've been TRYING to save up for some thing, but I failed. terribly. Sigh. Anyhoo, I managed to purchase some things I love so much. Take a guess, will ya? You don't need to guess actually, people who know me will naturally know the answer coz I am just sooooo predictable. On a general scale, I am obsessed with... cosmetics and perfumes. And occassionally, clothes. No. Not occassionally. Always. Ok, I am just rambling here. Gosh, I am bad in getting to the point. I love to digress. =.=''

Back to my main point. Yeah, I bought a new LE cosmetic set from Lancome, a blusher/highlighter/eyeshadow from The Body Shop, a De Javu Tiny Sniper (I lost mine, so I had to repurchase it). Gosh... I am quite broke now. My saving plan is totally gone. However, I am really happy with the stuffs that I bought. Beautifying myself with them gives me unspeakable satisfaction. LOL I am going nuts.

My tiny sniper and The Body Shop Blusher. (Kelly gave me that brush)

Close up: The Body Shop Blusher


Lancome LE Cosmetic Set. Love~~

Lancome LE Cosmetic Set: 6 eyeshadows, one blusher, one foundation (photogenic), one mascara, one juicy tube and one lip gloss. It is actually a good buy. I love this so much and I will never regret buying this. NEVER.

My shopping list is so damn longggggggggg... a never ending shopping list. =( How?? I guess that will be my motivation to work and earn more money.

Hello

Hello... Sorry guys... I've been really busy lately so I didn't have time to update... Since I'm free now... I shall resume updating my blog. I did a lot during the time I was absent from my blog... so I shall update one by one. Lots of work, ok? Anyway, on Thursday (30th Oct), we (Amresh, Cheri, Kelly and myself) decided to go for lunch at Dragon-I after class. So off we went!

Yummy! Looking at this makes me hungry. T.T

While waiting for the food

Kelly can't wait to eat!

Kelly yakking away while Cheri listened with an opened mouth. LOL

After lunch, we decided to look for our Halloween costumes and accessories, so we went to The Curve. Sya, who skipped class that morning, decided to join us to hunt for costumes.

We're acting like tourists. =.=''

The girls

Amresh - bewildered. LOL

Goin nuts. Seriously.

After a few hours of searching, I finally found what I wanted! *happy*

Guess what I was gonna be? I went for dark angel at first, but in the end, it didn't work out... so I guess... I was night angel. wtf

After that, we went for dinner at Apartment, The Curve

Love~~

So... on Friday night... Party time!!! Location: Cloth & Cleft, Changkat Bukit Bintang.


Cheri The Cowgirl, MinMin the Night Angel, Kelly the White Angel, Amresh the Devil, Sya the Hot Witch! LOL...

We are a weird bunch of people. (kidding). but we haveee....

The posers

The cute one

The dancers

And then, there is one funny picture of Kelly, taken after she tasted my AK47! LOL!!!

After party, we went over to Bangsar, Devi's Corner for some Shisha (Amresh's favourite)


Ok well... that pretty much sums up our night.

More updates soon~~~~~~~

I am not ditching my blog!

I've been busy lately so I do not have the time to update my blog...

However, after this Friday... I WILL BE FREE FOR 4 MONTHSSSSSSSSSSSS

There will be a number of posts coming soon...

My obsession

I have so many assignments in hand... but I don't feel like doing it. This is my weakness, or you can call it bad attitude - if I don't feel like doing something, I will NOT do it and no one can force me to. Unless it's compulsory/or I'm obliged to. I know...assignments are my obligations, but I think I still have some time to waste... =.=''

Anyway, before I digress any further... I'm gonna talk about my all-time obsession. Friends who know me well are, of course, aware of this. My obsession is.......... eyelashes and mascaras!!!!!! I just can't stop buying mascaras and stuffs related to eyelashes. Crazy, right? But I just love them. I even wrote a feature story about eyelashes (one of my Advanced News Writing assignments).
P/S: I will post up the feature story here once I'm done with my current assignments, because I want to edit it and make it look like a feature story on magazine! :)

As the saying goes - Eyes are the windows to the soul - William Shakespeare.

That's why I love to buy eye-related cosmetics - eyes are important features on the face! And I think that eyelashes make a difference. BIG difference. Who doesn't want long, thick, and curled eyelashes? When it comes to applying mascaras, I do have certain expectations. I want them evenly applied (every single lash), lengthy, curled and volumized. Some might say that it's too fake, but it's just me. I like them to be precise. :D

My eyes with mascaras:

No they are not fake. They are really my lashes with three types of mascaras which I normally used. Which three? Take a guess!

My collection - Mascaras, fiber and eyelash extension serum:




My all-time favourite mascara:

dejavu fiberwig mascara.
Good stuff. To me, this is a god-sent tool to beautify my eyes! lol

That is all for now. I really gotta go and work on my assignment. It's due in less than 24 hours...... god......

Random updates and rambles

First of all, Happy Deepavali to all my Indian friends!!

I'm having a longggg weekend - I have no class on Friday and Tuesday. So I have five days off. I was kinda excited on Thursday, but that feeling quickly faded off, because I realized I have nothing much to do, except for assignments (which I have not even started doing yet). I'm not productive, I have not much of a social life. Sigh... Perhaps, it's my own silly fault for refusing to go out, but when I come to think of it, even if I do go out, there is nothing out there that excites me anymore. You name it - shopping, movies, karaoke, clubbing, drinking, yumcha, etc. I don't feel like doing any of those.

On a completely unrelated topic, I'm cutting out all the jerks in my life, gradually. Yesterday was another one.

Mr X: Hey, are you going anywhere tonight?
Cristabel: I'm not sure yet, perhaps I'm going to karaoke.
Mr X: Why not go for drinks?
Cristabel: There are drinks in karaoke.
Mr X: Who are you going with? All ladies?
Cristabel: No, I'm going with my brother, his girl friend and maybe my friend.
Mr X: Oh, then I'm not interested. Not fun without ladies.
Cristabel: Fine, goodbye.
Mr X: Come to think of it, since I have nothing to do, I might as well join you.
Cristabel: Oh, ok, up to you.
Mr X: By the way, is your friend pretty? Coz I'm bringing another friend, and I'm afraid that he would be bored, because you will be accompanying me what...
Cristabel: You know what, I'm so sick of you. You can go by yourselves, you stupid bastard/womanizer! Don't bother contacting me anymore. You can rot in hell for all I care. Be careful of STD.
Mr X: I'm just asking. Ok then, up to you.

Why? Why can't I get to know some decent guys? All that I have ever met are bastards! Stalkers, womanizers, selfish ones.....................
I've learnt my lesson. I will never again meet guys in clubs. Correction, I will meet guys in clubs, but I will never ever go out with them or date them anymore. *frustated*

Some random updates of my dull weekend:

• I went clubbing on Friday night - it was my brother's birthday. But the pictures are not with me now so I can't post it here. Just to clarify something, I will not be posting it anyway (perhaps you will find it in Facebook :D ), because we only took around 3 - 5 pictures as the camera's battery was dead. Anyway, the night ended really badly.
  
• I went for a family dinner to celebrate the arrival of a new member of the family - my cousin's newborn son! Congratulations!
• I went to Low Yat with my cousin Gavin on Sunday. Did not intend to buy anything at first but I ended up buying a camera, Canon Digital Ixus 870 IS. yay! But that happiness was short-lived. Don't ask me why... because I don't know.
  

• Today, I've been home all day long because the weather is freaking hot and I don't wanna go out. Perhaps I will be going back to Lipis a few hours later and if I do go, I will be back tonight. Why? Because I have nothing to do and since my brother is going back, I might as well follow. See? I'd rather go on a meaningless-and-no-purpose trip than staying home to do my assignment. I'm so lazy. And unmotivated. I've been in this state since the beginning of this semester. Help me!

Some random pictures:

My new 'toy'!!! Canon Digital Ixus 870 IS

Dinner at Jun Kee Restaurant - Cheras. Good food.
Sorry, I forgot to take pictures for the rest of the dishes. Too hungry, I suppose.

The baby went home early as he would not stop crying... so I did not have the chance to take his picture.

Gotta scoot! See ya!

hya

I will try to make sure that this new blog of mine is active. I am tired of ditching blogs.

Ladies and gentlemen... here I come!!!

Ok, I sound like a raving lunatic here. But anyway, this signals a new beginning for me. :)

Gotta go out and have dinner soon.

See ya~~~~